Another Hit To My Pride

 I think I have said before that I realize I am prideful. I love my hair. I especially have liked it for the past year and a half. It is long and colorful. I know how to wear it curly, wavy and straight now. I've grown into this hair. The one thing I hoped was since they didn't expect the chemo to last more than a few months that maybe I could keep my hair. Unfortunately, that doesn't seem to be the case. 

Today I went to take a shower. I combed out my hair and there was a large pile of hair on the counter and floor.


That would be bad enough, but then after the shower I found a large pile at the bottom of the tub. 


Sadly, when I was combing out my wet hair and another large pile came out.


As I sit here typing I rubbed my head and more is falling out. I don't have any big patches of bald spots on my head. That's a good thing, but I am starting to think about what I am going to do when it's all gone. I don't really want to do a wig. The only time I have ever done a wig it was super hot and itchy. But it was also a cheap one and I had a full head of hair at the time. I am also not a huge hat person. I'm just not sure what to do. My family is so kind and won't tell me what they think I should do. Except Katie pulled up a ton of pictures of people choosing to shave their head and do random interesting designs (flowers, arrows, hand prints, etc.). She was excitedly telling me this is the new trend. But every single picture was of a kid in their 20's. I am thinking I am a bit too old for that. 

For the moment I am just waiting. When I see a bald spot I will be forced to do something. Meanwhile I am working on reducing my pride. 






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