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 My fourth visit to the chemo clinic is complete. I got to have a return nurse, Nicole. She is awesome. She is empathetic, and yet so pushes for me to keep working and exercising. Keep moving and staying healthy is the main goal! All the nurses here are awesome, each has their special way of connecting. I am very blessed to be with this group of nurses in my Santa Cruz area!  There is some god news coming up. My white blood count stayed high two sessions in a row, so I won't need that booster shot this week! The shot itself is a shot, not fun but not horrible. However about 5 days later my bones hurt horribly and it's very hard to move peacefully. So I am glad I don't have to have that this session.  I am also at the 1/3 mark. I get to have the PET scan this week. This PET scan will show if there is improvement or not (praying for improvement). It will inform the doctor as to if he needs to keep the chemo-cocktail as is, drop one (he thinks this is most likely) or drop a ...

 OK. So, I already wrote a pot of how bad 2022 really has been. But believe it or not, it's gotten worse. Much worse. On Thursday Rick took advantage of me being at the doctors and not on a meeting in the kitchen area to do the dishes. He's pretty awesome that way! He loaded the dishwasher, washed down the sink and counters and headed back to his "office" to do work.  I came home from my appointment and saw water in the driveway. It was odd because it seemed to be coming from under the house. I walked into the kitchen to find about an inch of standing water. I opened the dishwasher to get it to stop and found the water was coming from a hose under the sink.  "No big deal," thought. "I''l just shut off the valve to that hose." Well, as I went to turn the valve and burned my hand with the hot water the whole valve broke off and now I had a hose flowing at full blast with burning hot water.  At this point I am screaming for Rick to come help m...

 A few different feelings and  revelations have come to mind this session of chemo.  One is that I was ridiculously happy when my blood test showed that my white blood count was high enough to do chemo. Think about it. I got blood taken and they tell me I am healthy enough to allow them to put poison in my body. I know that is so weird, but honestly, I am just so happy that I can get things over with. The sooner I do the treatments the sooner we can stop and my life can begin again. Another really odd revelation I have had is that I miss people. I've been the odd ball in my Mosely family. I really like my alone time. I do not prefer hugs and touching and being around a ton of people. At least not to have to talk to (lots of people at Disney is fine if I don't have to talk to them or interact with them!). But I am finding that I am getting a little stir crazy being with just me and my family. I want to go to the beach with my friends. I want to drive over the hill and see ...