Should I Keep It OR Shave It?

Chemo makes many changes in your body. The two hardest emotionally are the skin changes and hair loss.  They tell you about the hair loss, but nothing can really prepare you for it. I was especially taken by surprise because I had SO MUCH hair to start with. I expected it to thin a little, but my hair is gone, gone. Which brings me to the questions: 1. Do I shave it off now or wait longer? and 2. What is it going to look like when it comes back? 

             


The thing I wasn't told about is the skin changes. My skin is flaky and sensitive. The color of my skin is changing. I look older. I have never been good at skin care or makeup. I feel ill-equipped. And I feel like I am an embarrassment to my husband and kids. Vain? Absolutely! I like looking young. I want to look like me again. I am curious what will happen when I am off chemo. Will I ever look normal again? 


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